Thus, my conversation with God.
This isn’t working.
I wrote this article the other day (to much applause) defending people who send “thoughts and prayers” to people after a tragedy.
You might have read it.
I thought it would please you.
The problem is that if I’m honest… the people who object to such have a point.
Prayers…don’t seem to be very effective.
James told us that if we prayed for the sick and anointed them with oil that they would be healed.
I must have bad oil because my folks rarely get healed and sometimes they die.
Jesus said not to worry about things like food, clothing, and necessary provision because you would provide.
I know too many people who can’t pay their bills and the hunger situation is out of hand in some places.
You said not to worry about tomorrow because today has enough trouble of it’s own.
You neglected to mention that tomorrow will probably be worse.
Paul told us to resist the enemy and he would flee from us, but he appears to have built a nest in my house.
I could go on…the one about the eagle wings…the one about running and not being weary?
Now, I realize that you’re sovereign and I’m not fool enough to question your goodness out loud.
I’m also well aware you hear the murmuring in my head.
Unfortunately, this isn’t just a personal issue…you have enlisted me to sell this.
I’m supposed to not only pray, but encourage others to do so.
That means I end up carrying their discouragement and despair round with me as well as my own.
I always feel like I did something wrong…like it’s my fault.
I’m sure it is…but you covered that, right?
The bottom line is that a bunch of us need to hear from you…soon.
We’re starting to wonder what we can believe.
I believe…help my unbelief.